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“Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.”
Gracious and loving Father, because my heart has been sprinkled clean from a guilty conscience, and my body has been washed with pure water through the sacrifice of Your son Jesus Christ, I decree that I am qualified and welcome in His presence, every barrier of guilt, every whisper of unworthiness, and every trace of condemnation is obliterated by the finished work of Christ, I draw near to God not based on my performance, but on His perfection, I draw near with confidence, with expectancy, and with the intimacy of a beloved child approaching a loving Father.
I declare that my heart is pure before Him, my conscience is clear, and my worship is received as sweet incense, today and throughout this week, I enter His presence boldly to f ind grace to help in every time of need, I will not live at a distance from God, but in the warmth of His nearness, so I am cleansed, I am welcomed, and I am held in Jesus' mighty name. Father, Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.
